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WEEK 5 – AHHHHHMAAZING
The past week has been a combination of good and bad days. This blog contains some personal updates, and some body updates (scroll down).
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Few Personal Updates
Last Wednesday, I gained back some of my independence. I could start driving. My bat-mobile and I were truly excited to regain friendship but I have to admit after almost 2.5 months without driving I was pretty nervous.
I had my Grandma here from the UK and she said ‘are you sure you don’t want me to come with you?’ I was adamant that I would be fine – even though inside I was secretly pooping my pants but I just wanted to feel that independence again. So I get in the car.. and sit there for a solid 10 minutes amping myself up to drive hah.. what a goose! But it was all good once I got going and the nerves subsided. That feeling of independence was truly magnificent. Though I went overboard and totally wore myself out going around and seeing my friends.. forgot I was still recovering #stupidgal.
Unfortunately my Grandma left us to return to the UK last Thursday which was sad. She has been an absolute savour in this recovery, not only for myself but for my family. She has helped around the house, been my chauffeur and just been company when I am having good or bad days – having someone around, even if we were both doing our own thing was extremely comforting. Grandma – if you’re reading this, you’re incredible and I love you very much. Please come back because I miss you and now have to hang my washing out which is #hardtimes.
My weekend was relatively busy. My best friend spent her last weekend here for another 10 weeks whilst she works away. She has been an amazing support the last two weeks ensuring I leave the house, picking me up, dropping me home, pampering me, just been there to chat, laugh and have fun at all hours of the day/night. We spent some time together on Friday and Sunday which was lovely. Though Sunday I wasn’t feeling too fabulous (hold up, i’ll explain 🙂 )
Philomena, thankyou for being my absolute rock. I don’t know how I got so bloody lucky to have a best friend quite as fabulous as yourself. Miss you already girlfriend!
Body Update & Doctors
My body has been quite sore in the past week. It started last Friday when my stomach became quite bloated and I couldn’t identify why. It was strange, I had not changed anything but things just did not feel right. I didn’t think much of it until I awoke Saturday feeling excessively tired. I took the entire of Saturday to express myself through the Homeland series before heading out for dinner. My body obviously needed it.
Sunday I was still feeling very average, my stomach was really swollen and to touch was incredibly sore. It was sort of a bruised feeling, but more painful – I don’t think that is a very good explanation, but that is all I’ve got – soz. I also noticed a slight change in my bowels which concerned me. I booked in to see my doctor Monday because I was worried that there was something wrong.
Monday came around and I went to see my doctor. He took some bloods to rule out infection and had a feel around my wound. This was rather excruciating 🙂 I kicked myself for not taking medicine prior to going but hey ho, you live and you learn. ANYWAY… he was happy with the recovery and said it was likely my abdominal wall healing and getting used to the increase in activities. Thankfully this put my nerves at ease. He said to just keep an eye on it, and if it is to get worse to return. PHEWF .. I thought I was going to have to go back to hospital because I was in so much pain.
My bowels have since been somewhat more normal, though still not ‘right’.. not like they ever explained it would be ‘loose’ #TMIsorry. I have an appointment with my surgeon on the 22nd so looking forward to hearing what he has to say about everything.
I think there is a lot of stigma on social media about ‘what you look like’. It is so easy to get wrapped up in this and consume yourself in those instagram famous fitness models that looks spectacular around the clock. I am here to tell you.. You’re good enough being yourself. You only live once, so make it the best life you can, have a scar? embrace it, have an ostomy bag? ROCK IT. No-one except you, knows what you have been through .. sure people will make judgements, assume things and presume they have the answers – but do they? ABSOLUTELY NOT. Rock what you got pals!
As for my scar – IT IS BLOODY GREAT. I never thought I would be happy with a huge scar down the middle of my stomach.. sure I had to go with it, I had no choice but I was always thinking ‘there goes wearing bathers’, ‘great that’s going to look awesome’. But in all honesty.. I appreciate that scar so much.. and why shouldn’t I? It has got my to the other side of a terrible condition and made my life a hell of a lot more comfortable. I am not embarrassed of my scar, I am not here to hide it, I am here to appreciate everything my body has been through and cherish that massive wound for healing as well as it has.
If you live in Adelaide.. DR WATTCHOW IS YOUR MAN. What a surgeon. My scar is so bloody straight I often stare in amazement. He has one steady hand, a lifetime of knowledge and a heart of gold. I truly could not thank him enough.
Here is a little progression of my scar over the weeks:
Day after surgery
All very raw, very red and incredibly sore to touch.
Could wear my normal ‘gym’ leggings this week, some parts starting to heal over completely. The redness had also subsided a great deal.
A bloody miracle. It literally makes me so happy.
Most of it has healed over, slightly red though healing nicely. Most of the scabbing has gone now – some still remains but is doing mighty fine.
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